So, it’s been awhile since my diet change announcement. I have been busy with my new diet changes, shopping, cooking and all the fun stuff. I have been keeping track of everything I eat to see what takes and what doesn’t. It’s been an interesting journey and I have learned a lot. Looking forward to continuing this, feeling good and sharing this with you along the way. If you want to skip through the food portion just look for the stars and those will be my thoughts. Enjoy!
– GF cereal, vanilla almond milk, coconut flakes, raisins, walnuts
– honey lemon water
– chick pea rice dish
– some sprite and ginger-ale
– homemade popcorn
** Feel good today, so thankful and grateful
– Chili: mushroom, broccoli, onion, peppers, beans, tomatoes, spaghetti sauce, cumin, chili powder, S&P, kidney beans, spinach, carrots, celery
– Honey lemon water
– Lozenges ( ricola, honey)
– GF cereal, blueberries, vanilla almond milk, walnuts, raisins, coconut flakes
** I am always grateful, but especially these last two days not being ill. I always knew that diet could be a part of it but I always loved my food and I was afraid to change that. It was hard to make this decision, to give up everything I know, everything that’s familiar for everything that’s different and unfamiliar. I know that even the first day doing this, nothing but good could come of it. Change is always hard. I think my biggest struggle with it is that being a vegetarian who’s without a gallbladder I already have to be conscious of a lot of places I go or things I eat. I ask about ingredients, look at labels, ask people to change their gloves, watch what people touch and how they use their utensils and what their utensils touch. It’s a never ending watch and paying close attention to EVERYTHING! I feel annoying and I feel annoyed myself. By changing my diet even more I was frustrated that I would have to pay more attention then I already do or be even pickier and annoying. Walking into stores and seeing all the junk and sweets in the aisles I just realize I can’t eat anything, so it doesn’t even matter lol. I know this is good, I know this is right. I believe in it and am anxious to get/be better.
– My chili and rice
– ½ avocado
– Iced green tea
– Sautéed: mushrooms, onion, tomatoes, kale, asparagus with olive oil, S&P.
** When Mary suggested that I may be allergic to wheat and gluten I was super upset. “Give me cancer, give me ulcers, etc. But please don’t take away everything I love. I already feel like sh*t and now you want to take that away, the foods I enjoy. Can’t I just have that?!?!” Was my thinking. (A little dramatic, I know) We had the convo over pho dinner. I was telling her I can skydive, I can do some crazy and scary things, but changing my diet terrified me sooooo much! It seemed ridiculous to herm so many people she knows is already doing it. She lives in Cali, it’s like “a thing”. As I continue on this journey I am realizing there’s so much more to it.
There’s the idea of change that I spoke about last time, but there’s more emotional responses coming to the surface. You don’t realize how attached you are to things until you take them away or try to change them. I was so hurt and upset by her reaction to me not wanting to change my diet and how terrifying I thought it was. She was a little insensitive yes, but at the same time I believe I was trying to get out of it and she wasn’t letting me. I know she believe in me and just wants me to be healthy and feel good. I also believe in myself and believe I have the power to do great things. Sometimes it just takes some hard love for that little push. So I thought to myself it can’t do much more harm then what I’m feeling right now. The next day I made a facebook status and asked my friends for support as well to follow me on my journey. I feel like doing something like this alone is the most difficult way to accomplish it and hold fast to your goals. That night Mary and I went grocery shopping for everything organic and what/gluten free. It’s only been 3 days, but I finally have some relief from pain. For me, one full day without pain feels like a miracle. Looking forward to feeling good for a week or even a few! For now… one day at a time.
– Mango lemonade
– GF cereal, blueberries, vanilla almond milk, walnuts,
– Lozenges (ricola, honey)
– Sauteed: brussel sprouts, peppers, rice, red onion, white onion, asparagus, mushroom, kale, olive oil, S&P, tomatoes.
**Feeling really dizzy today.
I don’t feel good, Don’t think I ate enough today.
At dinner I felt even more sick and sick I became
– Tired of being sick
– I feel like I can’t do anything right.
– GF free waffles with syrup
– Iced green tea
– Scrambled eggs with spinach, onion, mushroom, potatoes, ketchup.
– Hazelnut steamed almond milk
– Rice spinach Indian thing
** Feeling good, so thankful breakfast went down okay. That means the rest of the day should be good too! J
– Fruit (pineapple cantaloupe, strawberry)
– Eggs, mushroom, onion, spinach, ketchup
– Hot green tea
– GF rice pasta and organic sauce
** At a restaurant that I get to see everything that they do. They are using the same utensils to flip the French toast as they do for the ham. When I asked that they make sure that doesn’t happen with my food, the waitress went to the manager and the manager went to the cook. When my order came up they then yelled, “this is the order”. It’s kind of like ‘this is the one to spit in’. On the plus side, by asking them to make sure that didn’t happen I got advised that the potatoes are fried in the same oil as the meat. Then I got offered fruit instead. I just don’t understand why they can’t make sure not to cross contaminate no matter how small. Make it a standard? Isn’t it the way it’s supposed to be? I do have to say when I ate meat and didn’t have to pay attention to anything, I really didn’t find it a big deal. I also wasn’t working for the public and my grill wasn’t in front of a customer. I personally would never be able to work with food like that under such scrutiny.
In my last blog entry I talked about not wanting to be annoying. My personality, I really don’t like to be fussed over. For example when I meet someones family and they find out I’m a veggie it’s fuss fuss and going out of their way. With my kind of diet restrictions now, I really can’t help it much. Unless I never go out.. Sometimes watching and knowing what they do or how they do it makes me feel like I don’t want to eat out anyways.
** Did my big grocery shop. Feels good to support local and small business’. Cost $130 but I feel it was worth it. I’M WORTH IT! Got a lot of staples and started everything fresh and new. It feels good to be able to eat freely and know you won’t be sick afterwards. To know that the products that you’re eating and supporting are promoting your health. They believe in good, wholesome, clean products free from chemicals and the monopoly of it all. People who believe in doing the right thing and only want the best for you.
– GF cereal, vanilla almond milk
– Strawberry yogurt
– Cucumber, tomatoes, red pepper hummus
– Noodles and sauce with parmesan and nutritional yeast
– Roasted chick peas, oil, S&P, cumin
– Canned tomatoes
** My newest challenge is jealousy. I see people with cups of coffee and breakfast sandwiches on the go. It’s so easy for them, so convenient. It’s something I used to be able to do, but no longer can. I remember how easy it was if I was running late and couldn’t have breakfast at home, I would just grab a scone and a latte. I packed my cereal because I was running late with my milk in a mason jar. I can’t believe I did that … me! On the flip side I know that if I did buy things that other people were eating I would end up very sick. All the stuff that’s in “convenient” food is sooooo bad for you and I know that. But it hasn’t stopped the yearning of wanting to just go buy a muffin or a scone. Instead all I can eat is what I’ve packed. Eventually I’ll get used to it. But the memory of convenience is so fresh and I’m reminded of everyone around me with bagels.
- Side note: This reminds me of high school when everyone would go to subway for lunch but I could never afford it so I had my packed lunch.
- How I feel: Really good!! Honestly better then I’ve felt in a long time.
– GF cereal, vanilla almond milk
– Red pepper hummus, cucumbers and tomatoes
– Rice with sautéed kale, zucchini, white onion, broccoli, yellow peppers, mushrooms.